Speaking of Life...


yo this is for the anonymous person in my last post's comments.

My question to you then, is how could you not know? I'm not picking a fight. I'm trying to find out how you could possibly not know because you sit at lunch with Karl and Joey. And that's when they are being stupid, making up those jokes, being immature, you know. You are always near them when they do it. And you were right there at the lockers, when Tommy told me that stupid thing Karl said.
I know this could hurt our project, but at the moment I'm just too upset to let this go. I'm not going to say nasty things behind your back or even try to get revenge or whatever because I don't have time for that. I need to find out a way to get those jerks to leave me alone. I'm just a bit preoccupied, so this crap has to wait.



Shittiest day ever. Don't want to talk about it.

Nothing else to say so I'll talk to y'all later...


V-Day's coming

Oh boy Valentine's day is on the way and it's gonna suck. All my chums with the exception of a few are gonna get those singles club blues and I'll have to comfort them. But just to tell you all, I am not buying all of you chocolate. I'm too poor for that ;) No, you all get hugs!!!

And maybe some candy or something. Eh... if I'm not too lazy.

I have no idea what to get hairboy. Pablo suggests a Learn to Be Vegitarian kit. I don't think that would go over too well considering he loves to talk about the venison in his freezer...? I'll think of something but not just the regular chocolates. That is so cliche. And we all know how I despise cliches.

UGH! I'm watching American Idol and they are singing the same song over. and over. and over. and over. and over. and over. and over. I'm dying.

Gooooood news! The dryer is fixed, and my clothes are all dry again!

I want a mental health day. Today was one of the worst days ever. If you don't know why... well ask later and I might tell you. Don't exactly want to post it on the internet...
You know who you are that said that crap, and it really ticked me off. May I suggest getting a new life instead of constantly trying to piss me off and make me angry??? That may be a wise decision. I really hope you have the sense to can it because that was so uncalled for and totally gross.

I'm going to finish my loads of homework I have left so ciao dahlings :)



Ok. All this crap is going around about Emily, and it really needs to stop. I'm serious. It's getting old. It wasn't good in the first place, and it's only worse now. There are more hurtful comments from God knows who every single day and she also has to read them every single day.
I just want you to do this. Put yourself in her shoes. I'm serious, do it now. Ok now if all of those insults were directed at you, don't you deny that you would be pissed, or hurt, or just plain feel bad. She has felt that about 20+ times now because every time a nasty comment is left, something is said directly over IM, or anything else like that, it gouges a deeper scar. Do you honestly think that a stupid ASSIGNMENT that she wrote is worth what we are doing to each other??? Let me answer that for you. No, it's not.
This needs to stop, and it needs to stop now. Look at ourselves. Look at what we are doing to each other. We were friends once, at least some of us, and now any shred of friendship that survived the first part of this fight has been shattered miserably by the second part. I don't know why we are doing this to each other.
This is incredibly cliche, so forgive me, but I'm going to say it anyway. Words hurt. And maybe that's what we were going for. Infact, it was what we were going for. All of us. Not just "one side" and not just the other. And it happens every day. We don't even notice it, but I'm sure every day of our lives that by the time we go to sleep, we have hurt someone else. Maybe not drastically, but through a gesture, a glare, anything. Do we really want to live our lives like that? I hope not.
This could be our chance to change that. This could be a new beginning. I know every single word exchanged between us has been cruel, nasty, and let's face it-bitchy. And thats "what girls do". But it doesn't have to be. We need to stop categorizing ourselves... what is this smart kid, popular kid, druggie kid crap??? We are ALL people. We are condemning ourselves to avoid each other by categorizing ourselves. Why do we do that? It's a surefire remedy for fights. It's like we want to hate each other.
If I could, I would take back every single thing that happened. I would wish that someone could have stopped those boys from bringing that to school, for their own safety and wellbeing, and for the safety and wellbeing of every other student. Just because they chose to do that does not make them bad kids; and just because someone reported it does not make them a "goody goody toeshoes". We all have our different opinions and points of view, as I think we have all discovered by now. They will collide with each other and cause disagreements and fights. But I don't think they should have caused anything as bad as this. We have allowed our emotions to run wild at each other. Pain, anger, guilt, fear, stress, all of them have been put into the form of words and hurled at each other.
We need to stop this now, before it gets any worse. And believe me it can. Please. I'm asking all of you to forgive and forget. Many many many hurtful things have been said, and nothing can take them back. Not sorry, not anything. They are there forever. But what can change this situation is the compassion to forgive each other. It takes a humongous heart for anyone to forgive anything that has been said here, because all of it was so hurtful. But if we can manage to find that heart inside of us, we may be able to save our friendships. It's there. Everyone has the ability to forgive. Sometimes it's very hard to find, and trust me it will be hard to find in this situation. I know that if we try hard enough, we will find it. It won't fix everything. It's not that easy. But it would be a start. A very good start.
Please, if anything in this post matters to you at all, you will try to forgive each other. We'll try to stop this. It can be done, and it has to be. This needs to end here and now.... so what do you say?


surpriiiiiiiiise party

Alrightskie so I thought I was going to Emo's to sleep over. Which I was. But I didn't know there was a party involved. That's right, I was yelling at her for dropping my pillow in the mud "you have issues you know that? ISSUES!!!" and then I walk into the garage and 20 people jump out and start like, screaming and stuff. So I screamed "HOLY CRAP." Because you know, that was just a litttttttle bit unexpected. Hanyways, I got a lot of good stuff including gift cards to Hollister, Blockbuster, and FYE which I will go blow in about 5 minutes. Sooooo, I will write more later. TO THE MALL!

Oh yah I also got $$$money$$$ which I will also go blow at the mall now. ciao dahlings!